Why even bother to begin when you could see the ending? It is frustrating to know how much risk I would take. Am I seriously that dumb enough to fall for something that's not worth fighting for? And making myself sad in the very end.
Yeah, I can say I brought this upon myself and I'm taking the blame for it. I really hate myself for being soft hearted at times. Not that I expect anything, but whenever I treat people nicely and I just don't get appreciated.
It always happen to me no matter how many times I have been through this. I tried to be mean, brutal and heartless but that's not who I am at all. Sometimes, I feel like nobody could ever see the good side of me but only the dark side.
Yet the dark side has never taken over me. I don't know how I should say this but I hate falling outta love. It is something that I have committed to in the beginning yet it all still falls apart in the end. I guess it does really mean to say what's meant to be will always be, what's not will not be...right?
Is this destiny or fairness in this world for all of us? I pray to God for an answer. But no matter how, I know that I will survive the hard times and be a better person each time.
Perhaps it is really time to move on and neglect the past for a new beginning. It is my life that matters and I shall treasure it. Live it as I should, forgive and forget. Let fate be while I keep my faith strong for myself in this life.
Tomorrow is a new day, and everyday will be a better day. I gotta be strong and I will be. In God's will I live, and Karma will visit everyone. The journey of life is filled with wonders yet it is the choice that we make matters.
That's all for now. God bless.
