Tuesday, April 12, 2011

The Memory

They were the times I remember, they were the times I do not remember. Looking back on it, it was just yesterday. A yesterday that has far gone, memory lost and found. Time now has changed and different, it is those days that I'm missing most. Time has gone by, memory is fading, but what is left is myself and the love you have given.

I am never better than it was, sometimes I wish the clock would turn back in time. Knowing that if I ever have the chance, I wish things wouldn't go wrong as we were the king and queen of promise. Right now, I'm someone different, far more different than I was. I no longer know the person I used to be, it has been forgotten since you been gone.

For all there is, I may be better and I may be not in the present. No one has done what you done, the greatest strength of all you have shown to the real meaning of love. Will we ever meet halfway again? The odds may be hard, but there might or can be a miracle. I saw the chapter of us walking under the rain, yet I find myself asking when and how it happened. My memory doesn't seem to unfold, as those were the little things that meant so much.

Your smile, laughter and joy...together, they are no longer by my side. What's gone is gone and there is no turning back. I might find myself missing you, because I am not better as I was yet with a smile I know that I have lived my life to the fullest.

I guess memory is just memory after all, have you forgotten? The answer lies in yourself, because part of it I have forgotten and you're forgiven. Life goes on with or without you. As I still live to see the day, I know there lies a journey in me. With what I have now, I may not be as perfect as I was, things aren't the way it could be. I guess I will just have to live with misery at times, but deep inside with you in my memory from the past...the grass is greener on the other side, and I hope all is well.