Stupidity

Sometimes I just don't really get to understand what a girl thinks after all as their doings would really turn your brain into tonnes of questions. As to this, the most serious common problem that I see and speculate is the amount of abusive relationship that girls encounter these days. Some girls may seem great and gorgeous or having a good time in the relationship, but the real fact lies behind.

Most girls are either being cheated or beaten up by their boyfriends these days, it is cruel indeed. But no doubt, in a logical and sensible manner are to leave and walk out of the relationship for the sake of not being killed. Yet, these girls do not save themselves but letting such horrible and terrible things happen to them, not just once, but over and over again. Why would they wanna suffer and feel torture? Is it really worth dying for the person they love? Is it really worth losing own lifestyle and exile for the rest of it? I asked around a few girls and I was shocked by the answers given.

A girl said to me she felt great being controlled, she likes to be scolded, and she definitely likes to be abused. Okay, that girl is only 16 and I assumed that she's still very naive and immature so perhaps that explain why, but yet it is not sensible enough because she likes pain thus it does explain that she has mentality problem. Then, another girl who has a friend who is so beautiful but yet she is often abused by her boyfriend for the past 5 years. She was beaten up using a baseball bat, and constantly being scolded and yelled at, and certain times being punched or slapped. It was said that this guy is her first boyfriend and she is so much in love with him, but I definitely think that guy is an idiot after all. Just because when a girl is so in love and begin to lose herself, yet the amount of pain and nightmare she can bring to her life is well being accepted by her because of the sacrifices she would wanna make in order to detain the relationship. Girls like that do feel helpless and hopeless because to them it is the end of everything if they lose their love ones.

Sometimes I really pity people like that because they are just so helpless, even though people try to help them yet they won't accept help because they themselves are the problem. In many cases, they were given choices but it is often rejected because they feel the need in the relationship is not worth giving up. Life is out there and whole lot more, it is not just about one guy or one girl because at the end of the very it is still yourself who gets to enjoy your own life. Why exile yourself in fear and pain when you're given the choice of a better life? Things don't always come in the way you want but yet better things do come when it is all least expected. People gotta learn to appreciate all the little things they have and not dying for something galaxy away. There is no point in waiting or staying where as you don't move on after all, because the only set back is you get older while your friends around you are moving ahead with greater joy. It is not that bad to let go of the past at all because everyday is a new day where every new second brings a new journey of life. See things more in a way where you're open to opinions and suggestions because these are the guideline to a better and healthier lifestyle.

As for the guys who are being abusive, I agree it is in the mentality of men's ego somehow. I've seen how men treated women with inhumanity; it is a total disrespect to the human race. Some men think they are the greatest and no one else can say another word other than themselves; yet how great are they when they are nothing in themselves at all? Men can be really stupid too and not just women, because men possess the mind of possessive power as they think they are in control in everything. The world comes with a balance of humanity, everyone gets to speak and talk so it is not just one person or species that is in control of everything. Thus, the egoism in a men or their lifestyle are totally a disgrace and stupidity in them.

Girls can be very forgiving and caring then again everything's got its limit so be wise, but yet they can be very fragile as well because it is what they are. Stop abusing them because they are human being as well and not some filthy animal as we are all human. Wake up people and be clear of your own life, tomorrow is a new day and the next second is a new beginning. Get a change!

By Jack Ho

Conspiracy of Jack Ho Part 2: Racism in Sports

It has finally come to my worst nightmare after all these years, as I have been worrying so much about it yet it has finally come true. Ever since I took up sports, the fight in my heart for achievement has always been strong and well focused. But just yet, I have also always bear in my there is another game to be faced as well which is the unfair judgment from sport council. I don’t depend so much on the national sport council after all because all the while I knew they have been treating athletes with favourism and racism. Since I was young, I have always told myself not to bother about them and stand on my own to achieve what I want in my life, but still I have come to a point where in order to represent the country there are procedures need to be followed accordingly.

When I knew the procedures have to be taken into account in order for me to step further into my dream and goal, I knew I would eventually encounter the worst nightmare of my life. Recent competition was Sarawak International Triathlon, I did great and it was the best performance I ever had. I clocked 2:05.46 and was placed 9th in the International Category, and 1st in the Sarawak Category. With the best result I ever had, I was advised to appeal to the Malaysia Triathlon Association to race in International Triathlon Elite group. Then, the first outcome of the appeal was favourism as the chairman said I wasn’t good enough because I am not as good as his son. Yet, his son shared the same standard as I do but it is just that I could not outrun him during the running leg. Thus, I admitted that I’m not as good as his son is with sincerity and honesty.

Then, with my time being clocked the fastest within Sarawak among all Sarawakian triathlete, I was named the overall champion. I thought with such performance I can at least represent the state as everyone has expected so because there is no one else who can beat me, even the closest guy behind me was 1 minute gap. Besides, the Sarawak Triathlon Association has also promised me sponsorships to compete in other races as I performed well and they would choose me to represent the state as I was named the best and finest. Yet, these were all empty promises and lies. Last year, they told they did not have budgets to send us out for races but yet people came asking me Sarawak team presented in the Port Dickson International Triathlon and why I wasn’t there? I was shocked when everyone asked me the same question as the association has told me that they had no money, so it came to a point where everybody started to realize something has gone wrong because the athletes they sent were those who lost to me all the time. After hearing all these unfair selections they had or lies, I started to lost my trust in them and told myself not to be too optimistic for this year. Then, a day ago a friend who is a Chinese from the sport council contacted me to ask if I am gonna compete in Desaru Half-Ironman in August because the Sarawak Triathlon Association is sending a team and the selection has been done. I was surprised to hear this somehow because I was never contacted, so I confirm with my friend that I was never told by the association about it. Then, my friend told me they selected the top 3 best triathletes in Sarawak to represent, he thought I was in it because I clocked the best time in Sarawak but he was wrong. So he told me all the 3 seats were given to the malays, and I know who are those 3 because they were so far behind me during the race and only manage to finish after 10 minutes I have. It is a big disappointment indeed as we all could see how unfair as they play favourism and racism in their system. Just because I’m Chinese so I’m not good enough to carry the name Sarawak even though I was born here? If they think they can do better than I am, but I guess I can even do better than they think as I know I will do even better next year or the race. I’m up for it because triathlon is in my blood. They may take away my name from the list, but they will never get to take away my pride because people will always know. So I’m not depending on our pathetic government anymore as we all could see how unfair they are.

Thus, it has come to a point where why Malaysia can never improve themselves in this world, for some reason that everyone know. However, with the anger I have right now I do keep myself calm and not to bother about any of these anymore. I still can catch my dream and goal, and achieve to greater distances. Faith I have, and it is me who can never be taken away.

Gently

Swiftly, gently, flows of nature,
Gently touches my head.
Wind beneath my lips,
Flight of kisses blew along the gentle breeze.
The light that turns the sea into field of gold,
Yellow as it is and brightly shall it be,
Open the door of Hope.

By Jack Ho