Who is she?

Today, I woke up with a question in my head "who is she?"...it felt weird, and real at the same time to realize I dream about a girl I have never met before. She was so real; I could feel her touch, her soft lips from her kiss, and her warmth. And her smile that melted my heart, the feeling is just so real. Who is she? I just do not know, but this question will float in my mind and wonder along.

I dream I fell in love with her, and was really in love. She's caring and loving, very affectionate. She's beautiful, a red-headed scarlet, tall and slim, fair complexion with beautiful long legs. She followed where ever I went in my protection, at one thought I felt she's a Russian.

At the same time, I was cheating. My girlfriend text me and call me, I lied as I was with her. She knew I have a girlfriend but she didn't bother, because she knew I have fallen in love for her. My girlfriend didn't bother much about what I do, so it was so much easier to hide this all along. Yet, it was just a dream...and, who is she?

Dream felt so real at times, but perhaps and it might be true that there is a connection between dreams and de javu. Will I ever get to meet this girl? Will I ever play cheating in relationship? And most of all, will this girl ever be real in love? I guess I will just have to wait for my fate to come, then perhaps my question will be answered.

My dream came true once, and I know i lived a dream...and it will, someday, to be twice.

What a beautiful Sunday today, woke up with a cold morning and gloomy clouds. Guess it was raining heavily last night, so as many have said. I love this weather, it just makes me feel great...and most of all, whenever it rains I feel the connection between myself and water. I guess it is just perhaps growing up in water as a swimmer made me feel so. But overall, gotta love the rain for it's cool and every droplet plays a melody of its own.

And, Chinese New Year is coming up, so as Valentine's Day. To my surprise, I just don't feel the mood or emotion for it. It feels like nothing and I just don't know what is expected to be done for it. Perhaps, this is what happen when you have grown up and that mood is just lost. Plus, many friends aren't around this time as most people go on vacation, and I guess this is a new trend.

She is sick today, since last 2 days I should say. Oh well, poor her and I hope she gets well soon. I still thought I could have my weekend with her, but too bad she is just not in the condition to. Plus, she just mad at me again because I was pulling a joke on her but I didn't know she would take it seriously. Whenever she is angry, it makes me feel upset because she would say things that really hurt me. It feels bad, though she doesn't know how it feels to be spit at with poison.

Anger, it's one thing that kills people...but it is also another that brings a lesson or reminder. Somehow, it is weird, whenever she's angry and upset me this would automatically reminds me of her, and let me to run into her. It has been awhile since I last saw her, never thought we would run into each other again for some reason. Sunday ago, she passed me by though we were like transparent. So today, I saw her again because she was mad at me. What a coincident!

Each time when I see her, it feels just like the first time I saw her back in the restaurant. That innocent and shy look of her's just never changed and go away. I smiled within myself whenever I saw that, though we can't even greet. Yet, this only happens when she is angry at me.

Coincident? Well, I guess God does work in mysterious way because He allowed me to meet her half way. So, in a way, I guess this is what meeting half way is about...so close yet so far.